Needing Alcohol to stop feeling Awkward @ Parties
The other night I went to a party.
I don’t regularly go to parties and I don’t know many people very well here but I am always open to see what the experience holds and, of course, its a chance to let your hair down, have some fun and get to know people better.
So I go along, all open minded and ready to have a good time.
But I noticed something really interesting.
If I wasn’t talking to someone, and if I was standing there on my own, I felt really awkward and very uncomfortable. It was really interesting as not many things make me feel awkward, but this did quite strongly.
I made a mental note to look at it later, and proceeded to mingle and started having a few drinks. After a few drinks, the awkwardness melted away..
Hmmm more interesting information..
So yesterday I sat down to work out what that physical awkwardness was all about.
The emotion this bought up was embarrassment, awkwardness, self consciousness.
Using the Universal Mindset Technique, I found 3 deep subconscious beliefs..
- I don’t fit in.
2. I don’t belong there.
3. No one would want to talk to me or be my friend (Blah!!!!)
Now, these are subconscious. I do not normally think this way! And they are totally surprising when I dug deep to find out what was causing my feelings of awkwardness. When I checked to see if they were true, YEP! 100%
Crazy!
So I wanted to find where these subconscious beliefs came from.
I went into my subconscious and I was shown these memories..
- When I was 5 I was at a party and I fell into a pool. I couldn’t swim (well properly anyway). My mother pulled me out, stripped my clothes off in and yelled at me in front of everyone. I was so embarrassed, self conscious and horrified.
- At a party when I was in kindergarten, the girls didn’t want to play with me. No one talked to me or wanted to be my friend and I looked like an idiot.
- At a party in a mansion on a cliff when I was about 8, I remember feeling really self conscious and out of my depth being at such a ritzy party. Like I didn’t belong there…
OMG!!! They were all the subconscious beliefs I had!!! CRAZY!!!
So with my adult Universal mind, I turned each one around to:
- My mum was just worried (and maybe a bit scared) so she reacted with anger. I was actually ok (although I do remember I thought I was going to drown..)
- The Rejection at the party was teaching me resilience and to be my own best friend when others snub me.
- And I deserve to be in ritzy places! Actually I prefer to be there!!
So lets see how I go at the next social event I go to! Wish me luck! xo
Kim Eibrink Jansen is a Spiritual & Universal Teacher, Messenger, Healer & Mentor, and developed the powerful Universal Mindset Technique, which is designed to find out our soul purpose for adversity here on this planet. Once the purpose is realised, the issue disappears and our reality changes to what we want it to be.
To connect to Kim go to www.kimeibrinkjansen.com or email kimej@bigpond.com
