“Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” ~Oscar Wilde
So today was kind of a strange day. With some social media drama that transpired yesterday, because of me speaking my mind… which actually led me to starting this blog.
I let it all out on the table yesterday. And it became more clear. This is exactly what I need. There is no turning back now.
More than accountability, I want you to share this experience with me. Maybe no one reads this, and it’s really just for me. And that’s the end goal, really. But if one person reads it and sends their love and support back… I can feel that. :) and it helps.
Just by knowing, or feeling, “we are for each other”, a sense of peace comes over me.
Until recently, I’ve always lived FOR others, meaning I am/was so wrapped up in what they might think of me, or expect of me, or how I could please them… I allowed others to determine my own self-worth. In this frame of mind, I (am) was often on edge, ready to please or defend, and really had little sight of who I was/am. I forgot that I am ME. And no one else. I lost sight of the line, or perhaps more accurately, the line has always been blurry.
Last week, I started learning about codependency. Like it or not, I have grown up this way. A lot has happened along the way of course, but that’s not what this is about. I’m here now, and I want to change.
But seriously, I invite you to join me on this journey. If you, too, have noticed yourself having codependent tendencies, then we shall walk this journey together. And for those that can’t relate, but still care, thanks for sharing this journey with me. And for those of you who can’t possibly relate, and think i’m crazy… well, that’s the beauty. Stop reading and following now :) Let me discover my truth. Let you be you and me be me.
So now I am beginning to look at the world full of beautiful possibilities. I am here. The time is now. I have so much to learn and explore. And I want to have fun expressing my full self and accepting every part with unconditional love.
This article helped me process a bit on codependency and next steps. http://tinybuddha.com/blog/ending-codependency-in-relationships-find-and-live-who-you-really-are/
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