Benjamin! You are so brave to be willing to share your story thus far as you have. Clearly you are meant to be a part of this world. I have not been down the same path as you in trying to commit suicide, but I have had relatives try, and it’s always a struggle to understand. I have been in a rough part of life for almost a year now and though it hasn’t yet panned out in a way that I would prefer it to, I try to just believe I am right where I need to be, for some reason and find things (even small typically mundane things) to be grateful for. I read recently that it’s important to believe that the best is yet to come. I hope with the feedback you’re receiving from having put yourself out here the way you have, that you are finding some good. Thank you again. Sending you love and light.