I do not know. I think you are in some perfectionism loop. Choices will be the same, your family will be the same and eventually you will die no matter if you are successful or not. It is not a goal of nature to be successful (or choose most successful) it just a nature law to spread sun energy. Like atoms has electrons on their own levels of energy. And you cannot tell if some electron more or less successful. They are just pushed by different levels of energy. So if nature pushed you to be on high level energy you will find rest on top process once your energy will match the level.