Worthless

You thought you could get rid of me?

How could you be so naïve?

You thought I was something trivial

That would just blow over?

A flickering flame that would die with one weak breath?

You should know better.

I am perfection darling, Your perfection.

I’m eternal.

For you, I will stay here forever and ever.

I will be that tiny voice in your head

That tells you the truth.

I will be that sigh in your voice when you see yourself in the mirror

I will be that anger that you feel towards yourself when you don’t measure up

I will be that bite of regret when you look at all the roads you are choosing not to take.

I will be that burst of uncertainty when you look at the road you are taking

But most of all love, I will be that overwhelming chorus in your heart,

That chants for you, like a cheerleader

That chants for you, like a mystical spell of immeasurable power

That chants for you, like a compulsive ritual

I will chant, for as long as you keep yourself alive.

“You will never be good enough”

You thought you could get rid of me?

How could you be so naïve?

I am perfection darling, Your perfection.

I’m eternal.

You should know better.

I care for you too much to let you go.

You need me here, to remind you of your place.

To remind you that you are nothing

To tell you that you can never be good enough.

When you are working

“You will never be good enough”

When you are at the dinner table

“You will never be good enough”

When friends come into your life

“You will never be good enough”

When friends leave

“You will never be good enough”

When you gaze deep into his eyes

“You will never be good enough”

When you gaze deep into your own

“You will never be good enough”

I will crawl into your bones and mate with your marrow

I will flow into your very soul

And embed myself deep within all that you are, and all that you will ever be

I will become so much a part of you,

That I will be the first thing you think of when you wake up

And the last thing before you sleep

And, if I do my job well, and am particularly fond of you,

I will be the last thing you will ever think.

You thought I would leave?

But I am perfection darling, Your perfection.

You should know better.