Does this make me vain?

Okay, I just want to know if you would consider me to be vain. I’m a lover for the arts and being creative. I grew up singing and dancing as a kid, it started out with my mother playing the piano and teaching my sisters and I how to sing and harmonize. We sung on the church choir and of course performed at all family events. My mother put me in dance school because I wanted to learn how to tap dance like Gregory Hines. Shortly after that she put my older sisters in dance also, before we knew it; it was as if we lived there. At every dance rehearsal we also had music rehearsal right afterwards. At every dance recital we always opened the show with a song and dance number. The older we became the less we wanted to sing. We performed at lots of shows and events. Finally I came to the conclusion that I wanted to do music and I’ll go solo if I have too. Needless to say, I did just that. I also ended up joining two girl groups in the process because each manager wasn’t looking for a solo act. So I played along until I realized that things weren’t working out. I continued to work on my solo career in music. One day I received a call for an audition for this girl group called Divine. At the time they had a hit song that was out called Lately. I went in to audition and everything was playing out just right until they wanted to have a rehearsal with me and the girls. I went in to learn the dance choreography and the lyrics to the song. The dance rehearsal went well but music rehearsal not so much. They never provided me the sheet music or even just the lyrics so I could learn the material. It felt really tense in the studio that day. After we rehearsed the girls sat around and told stories about them being on tour with N’sync. I enjoyed hearing their stories but they seemed annoyed with me for not giving my input. I mean really… what was I supposed to say. It’s not like I went on tour with N’sync. Once rehearsal ended their manager sent me home to learn all the songs from their album. As time went on, I get a call from the manager one day and he tells me that the girls feel it’s not going to work out because they felt I had an attitude. 😳what… I couldn’t believe what I was hearing, so I’m sure you realize I never became an official member of the group. I continued on to work on my music praying I get my big break. sometimes things don’t work out the way you plan. I’m not a big fan of everything I hear nowadays on the radio. Tell you the truth I stopped listening to the radio a long time ago. Their are so many talented artist that you will never get a chance at hearing, and sometimes it just doesn’t seem fair. So when I’m in my car driving or maybe sitting in the passenger seat, do you know what I’m listening too? I’m listening to me, myself and I; and all the songs that I have recorded over time. I may listen to the radio every now and again, but who wants to hear the same songs over and over. So I just listen to myself or nothing at all unless I’m playing some old school music. I continuously write and record new material all the time. So I’m wondering if listening to my own music makes me vain? I believe, I’m my own biggest fan. It’s like saying If I can’t love myself who will. The music industry has always been a tough business to break into and sometimes I feel defeated, but as long as I can sing, write and record new material, I still have hope that I’ll get there. You tell me, does this make me vain? Listening to my own music.