I’m at the very start of starting over. I just left the company I’ve worked for my entire adult life and am in the process of looking for a new job. I wrote a little bit about how scared I was in https://medium.com/p/5a4e24053bc3?source=linkShare-b98c2a0f0f32-1460223704 and I’m still a little scared. Mostly though, I’m excited.
Interviewing when you haven’t interviewed for anything in 10 years is a bit terrifying. (I’ve got my first interview tomorrow. 😬) But it’s also kind of exciting? Talking about what I’m really good at and passionate about is fun. Even thinking about it is an adrenaline rush.
I’m also lucky enough, financially, that I don’t need to worry about finding something immediately. I can wait and find the right opportunity — find a job and company that I’m a good fit for. I have so many ideas about what I can create at the right place and I’m psyched to get started. In order to do that, I’ll need to find the right place. A place with a little bit of vision and one that’s going to trust me. That’s going to take some time to find.
Lastly, the idea of working at a new place will give me an opportunity to be a whole new me. The down side of spending 19 years with the same company is that there are people who see you as the same person you were 19 years ago. And I’m not that person. Hell, I’m not even the same person I was five years ago.
So, here’s to new beginnings and starting over and pushing past the fear and finding the excitement.