Trapped inside Mendoza: being prisioner of the town I live in.
There was a time, when the most important desition to make was wether to play with toys or wathch a movie. But that was so much time ago that it is even hard to remember. Now, I have to make one of the most influencing choice about my future: colleage.
The college desitions are now overestimated. I live in Argentina, a country where people of my age is more worried about what they will do this summer holidays than their career. These days, I stopped caring much on other people and started to think on what I want.
What I want? What are my possibilities? and where these two ideas merge? have resulted in a complete struggle to me. I want to study abroad, but is that possible to me?
As my parents want me to study at a local university, I got enrrolled in a pre medicine course to help me sit for the local pre-med school exam. I takes a year, three hours a day, the hole week. I mean, a complete tourture for a hole year, three hours a day, for every single week.
My teachers want me to chill a bit. They said I am too stressed, but how I could not be so stress? I am considering how my life is not really mine, taht it is just an illusion. I have virtual control of it, because the real desitions, the important ones, are taken by my parents or another idiot.
I thought that as soon as I turn 18 years old, I could leave my house and find a place to live on my own, far away from this country. Just to feel that I have the power to break the chains that tie me here. Although, it seemed to be a good idea, now it looks imposible.
I recently came out as gay to my parents. Trying to break the jailed I was living in, I end up where I started. They say it is a normal kids ask themselves at their age, but it is just a blindfold to them. Then, I feel I was born in the wrong place. It is not no ones fault but mine.
So, I see my self intending to prevent the imposible. Being trapped in my town, Mendoza, untill I finish my studies. I hope that if you are reading this, you give yourselfe a chance to think of your life. However, why do I have to wait to do what I want? why do I have to wait to be happy?
Try to make the desitions that makes you feel happy, no matter the other peoples thoughts. A little advise by somebody who would give up everything for having that privilege.