The Inevitable truth.

For the past few months I was in this phase where I didn't know exactly what my heart wanted, just because I was fighting with what my heart and mind was telling me. Its weird how your heart and mind can always be contradicting each other. Your heart want something and your mind don't or the other way round. The truth is you will never understand what's up when you don't give yourself a chance to let everything go, whatever is your issue at the moment, breathe and look for something to disturb your mind to give your heart a break. 
Well, it helps a lot! You don't know how much. Try listening to good music, going out with your friends, eat good food, remember you had hobbies that actually you've forgotten just because all your attention was focused on one person or one thing.

A friend of mine once told me that he actually has forgotten about his friends because of a relationship he is into, he started getting old, I mean his mind is into one thing and he has never realised that until his close friends told him he was getting too boring. I tell you this actually truth sometimes we get caught with work, our family issues, into relationships, etc.. And we end up forgetting that we also need time for our own.

I had a fight with my boyfriend recently and was convinced that this time, I wasn't getting back with him, coz I was actually pissed about what we had fought for. So, what I did was, avoiding any contacts with him as in calling or answering his phone calls, stop thinking about him or keep stalking him and so many other stuff.

So, yeah the truth is, its never easy to find your self single after having had someone who you used to be calling your girlfriend/boyfriend. You go through a lot of things that you weren't expecting, like I watched this movie right after we broke up and i actually didn't watch it because of other reasons its called "How to be single" lol. I was convinced later on that I needed to have a different life from what I was living while in this love relationship with my boyfriend. 
Yeah! I admit I messed up bigtime but kept telling myself that it was ok! Just a normal phase like anyone would be in. And the truth is what you actually learn from that experience its kinda sad but the truth. Truth is you might go out, be on your worst behaviour, acting so normal, going out on so many dates with different guys or chicks, but it will never cover the fact that someone else would be sharing that drink with you, sitting on that same table with you having some good wine or treating you the way you want to be treated; If I may say!

Sometimes we don't actually need this other things to forget about what we're going through, maybe its better picking up your phone calls just to listen to what he/she wants to say, yes! Take time for yourself but in a way that you won't do something that you will regret later on. Life is actually to short, leave it the way you won't complicate it so that it doesn't complicate you back. That's the truth!