I had a setback recently.
I wouldn’t even describe it as a setback. I had a very busy, fun, and fulfilling summer doing work that I loved. Work that I loved so much that I de-prioritized writing to make more room for it. Work that stimulated my brain and fed my soul.
And next week, that work will be over.
It was never a guarantee that the work would continue past Labor Day. There was always a chance that the contract would end. But I hoped. I dreamed. I believed.
It was not to be.
Believing in a certain outcome that did not come to pass brought up all sorts of feelings for me. Feelings of disappointment and sadness. …
I was trying hard not to lose my sh*t this morning.
It takes a lot for me to lose my cool at this stage of my life. I have a lot of good mental tools that I use to shift perspective when the unexpected happens. And most of the time, I know that flying off the handle never gets me the results that I want.
But this morning, my team made an error related an important work project for the fourth time. For the fourth time we had to reschedule a meeting because someone missed a few key details.
At this point, I had used every tool in my toolbox to manage my own mind. I was all out. The anger and frustration were creeping higher and higher. I spent the morning fixated on what went wrong. My mind working feverishly on the Rubik’s Cube of all that had happened on this project in the past. Looking for some way to undo what had already been done. …
Last week was a whopper for me.
It was a convergence of events. My kids’ school year was ending, and we had a lot of unusual events (and a lot of emotions) to manage around that. Plus, I had several different groups of family members in town and staying with us. For completely unrelated reasons. My house was overflowing with unexpected comings and goings, atypical schedules, uncertainty, and general disarray.
I spent most of every day trying to figure out who needed to be where and at what time. And when people would be home and want to eat. And how to serve the smallest number of foods that still covered everyone’s unique dietary needs. …