Writing Became Non-Negotiable 

Writing Everyday keeps Writers Block Away.

I started a journal in my sophomore year of high school to show my future kids that I was once just like them — full of worries, acne, immature, and always chasing significant others. My writing style was immature and full of grammar errors, but simple, naive, and sincere. I remember the pleasure and wonderful feeling of releasing my pent up thoughts onto paper and it was something I always treasured. Once I graduated from college, life slowed down and I began to write less frequently as the months and years went by.

I became lazy and even more unfocused.

I had already struggled for 22 years with the concepts of “taking my time” and “don’t rush” (and it wasn’t only until recently have I actually taken the time and necessary steps to remedy these bad habits). Writing in my journal always ended up on the back burner. Writing weekly became bi-weekly and soon bi-weekly became monthly. Even when I became infatuated with girls, I didn’t write as often. Maybe I just didn’t care enough about them to push myself to write about them.

Just recently, I stumbled across Medium.com. It’s got the essence of blogger and the search and social functionality of Twitter, but much more simplistic and refined. The quality of writing on Medium.com is astounding and it really felt like a small, close-knit community of writers. I’ve learned many things from my fellow writers on Medium.com that it inspired me to make writing an entry at least once a day non-negotiable. I can’t guarantee I’ll reach that goal, but it’s better to shoot for the stars with the chance I might actually land on the moon.

As I was growing up, I knew I had to turn on the switch to really fulfill everything I believed I am capable of doing. The only shame is that I didn’t execute that potential sooner. I’ve waited a long time to feel this way — probably too long.

It wasn’t until I got kicked in the butt (metaphorically speaking) at work that I realized I had to start executing without compromise. I needed to morph back into that guy at 13 years old, who forced himself to do things even if I felt tired or lazy. I had to become that 16-18 year old that went to the tennis court everyday after school by myself to train with grandpas so that I could chase a farfetched dream of being the best tennis player in the league (fell short, but had massive improvements). I looked at my 21-year old self, who chased a long distance relationship with a college senior and epically failed, but voluntarily put himself through an emotional roller coaster because he cared about her so much and didn’t want to give up at any cost.

I’ve built myself up to where I am today through sheer determination and willpower. I’m not smart or a genius by any means, but somehow I’m still here by not giving up and showing that I want to do the right thing; even if it’s messy and socially awkward. I strive on a daily basis to become a better version of myself through writing.