Is decision making a myth? Go with the flow?

Krishna
Krishna
Sep 7, 2018 · 4 min read
Will you ever know what you want?

9–5 pm Job is not for me, I’d like to work independently whenever I want. So I think I will become a freelancer said, Dave.

Wow! You’re living your life dude. I do not even know what I want, how did you decide that a 9–5 job is not for you? asked Wisbo.

Well, I tried working at two companies, I felt miserable. Every day was the same. It’s like I am looping to death. I felt more like a machine. None of my work made me content. Hence,… answered Dave.

Let me put on my evil mask here and ask you questions that may ruin our friendship here. Maybe the two companies you worked at are not good? I mean there are people who find joy in their 9–5 pm job. Did you talk to them? Did you see why they seem so happy? It’s not that they are below your intellectuality or spirituality. It could be anything. Did you try?

Well, I am not a person that asks people how they feel and then decide how I should feel. I kind of know what I want when I experience it. I never said anything bad about them. It’s just not for me. I believe in my decision-making skills. When I was a kid, I know I hated biology. I am glad that I didn’t become a doctor. I know it’s not a great example, but still, everything worked out for me.

Slightly going out of topic, but why did you hate Biology?

For one they have all these messy diagrams of the body parts that you have to draw precisely to the point. You have to remember a lot of stuff and there is little logic. I am always bad at drawing so I never wanted to go for it.

How did you know that you’re bad at drawing?

This is getting annoying. I am bad at drawing from my childhood. I cannot even perceive the complexity of a small brick house, let alone a human heart. In my first drawing class, I still remember, I was 15 minutes late. The teacher punished me by asking me to draw a picture of a flower on the board. I did so bad, the entire class laughed at me. That day my friend, I decided never to draw again!

Ok, I know that you’re a kind of person who doesn’t give up early. You could’ve taken that embarrassment and turned into hard work to become an expert painter or at least good enough to draw an amoeba. Do you remember why you took that decision?

Of course, I do! I was already having a bad day and this was extreme. I woke up in the morning and my mom forced me to eat a healthy breakfast. I was late to the school, got punished by the Principal. I also didn’t have clean shoes (I hate cleaning which is whole another story) and I had to clean them in front of everyone. Then the drawing drama. Man! Sometimes you have just the worst possible days.

Why are you always late for things? You never show up on time when I call you.

Well, I feel like people don’t value my time. I used to show up early always. But there was this girl, who never even visited to do homework with me many times, let alone being late. One day I got tired of her and showed up late because she needed help. There she was! Waiting for me with big round eyes, excitement in her eyes. I felt like I had power. This is some dark thing, man. Come to think of it, I remember her that day. She was the only one not laughing. She told me how she hates drawing as well and apologized for being late as she had to some household chores every day. The feeling at the end of the day was good. Good old days I say.

So you’re saying that you hate 9–5 job because you forgot the good things happened one day and focused on the bad in your childhood? Seems like Freud was right all the way.

Ok, take off your evil mask. I want to have another shot.

Of course my friend, of course, to life and decision making!

P.S.

I wanted this conversation to be much darker and deeper than it is right now. But at least it’s a start. Time to improve my algorithm, Wisbo told himself.

Wisbo is a conversational bot created by an advanced philosopher named Kan who possibly knew about everything that humans have discussed so far. Kan believed that her life goal is to help people to solve their deep questions about their existence. She always thought of applying those principles to her own life to prove her point, but never really had the time for it. Instead, she believed that her ambition is to consume knowledge that is greater than her own life and to publish it so that she can live through the lives of younger generations being truly immortal. You will hear more from Wisbo soon.

Krishna
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