Where to go from here:

This writer has been dormant. But she’s back.

Writing in the mornings, before her one-year-old wakes up, before her husband wakes up, before the day pulls her ambitions down and her inhibitions up. Running in the afternoons, after logging sitting hours at the office. Racing home to greet her baby, make healthy food, go for an evening walk, enjoy the San Diego sunset air, and kiss her husband and talk about their days. Each day doesn’t have to be on autopilot. Each day can mean something. That’s the intention, and the reality. All that is needed is bring awareness to that fact, that state of being, that bliss.

She is still exploring her new home, and found a new source of textual knowledge: San Diego: An Introduction to the Region, 5th Edition, by Philip R. Pryde. The juiciness of the first few pages have seduced her: the treatise on the sheer size of San Diego county both now and historically, and its place in history as California’s birthplace. Its topographical orientation along northwest-to-southeast axis of mountains, and its resulting ecological diversity as a beach, desert, mountain, and canyon. The uniqueness of its governing structures, something that has baffled her thus far, as she parses through: where am I now? Whose land is this, who decides what is done with it? Am I still in San Diego proper? What district organizes these schools? What authority manages water supply and waste processing?

Is she the only one who asks these questions? Oftentimes it seems this way. She never hears anyone talking about them. But now, reading what seems like a narrative response to all the things she’s been wondering about, she realizes her questions are justified, maybe even important. That maybe was a modest maybe. She knows, deep down, they’re important, and also knows that their relative low profile is perhaps not such a great thing, and also feels that — how great would it be? — more people need to think this way, and she should become a mover towards greater place-history awareness, especially in San Diego, land of the transplant and the few multi-generational residents.

She wants to touch the past and the future at the same time. She wants to bring them together and root them in the soil at our feet, with good old-fashioned boots on the ground and people working together to make a community better.

She will start by learning her history. And writing and running and being here now.