I have fallen into a dark hole

Like Alice

Without her Wonderland

I don’t want to function

I don’t want to be sucked in

Leave me here

Leave me here!

Messy hair and thirsty heart

I wait for a tiny shiny key to open a door I am too big to fit through

So I take a pill to make me smaller

And a swig to take the pain

I just want to bleed!

But this ache in my belly won’t allow it

I want to sing the same song over and over again because it keeps me from crying over and over again

I could simply rub my temples

To soothe this pain

But instead

I will cut off my head

Off with my head!

Off with my head.