Kris Lemons
Sep 3, 2018 · 1 min read

[ I Wonder Why.. )

i wonder what you think at night.. & what exactly makes you cry.. what makes you feel so guilty, & juss eats you up inside.. i wonder why.. “my emotions are pouring.. but my heart tells me “yes”.. she knows im feeling down, but she still makes me feel the best.. she never settles for less.. got me thinking hard.. i guess this time i was lucky to get this wild card.. sadly we’re far apart.. but nothing’s stopping her.. she has her own pain, but still puts me first.. its a curse.. she holds me dear.. & when we’re far apart, she feels so near.. i still shed tears.. i feel so bad.. now i done lost the best i had.. smiling when im sad.. she still waits for me to return & be her man.. but i juss wanna break for now.. my head is going insane.. my stomach twirls.. thinking back.. cant erase the shit i done to cause her pain.. i was supposed to keep her heart rate down.. keep my baby sane.. im ashamed.. im sorry”.. dont let that be what you think.. if it is, i forgive you.. dont let that bullshit make you sink….

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