I am white-ish (but I look white), and I care, truly and deeply, always have and always will, and nobody will convince me otherwise. I will never be desensitized to unnecessary murder based on skin color. It affects me, it enrages me, it changes me, it makes me hate (the media, the cops, the people who “get off” on watching this madness, the very society I live in, that allows this to continually happen, time after time, again and again). The problem that I have been facing (not just recently, but my whole life) is how to help and stand in solidarity, and not be berated as a racist. I am not educated enough to, nor do I ever want to speak for those who are marginalized, that is definitely not my right. I can only speak for myself. Heck I don’t want to speak for white people either. As a matter of fact, I think I may have become a little racist against white people through out my life, I don’t share their views or ideals as a whole. I dont take without giving back, I don’t demean or degrade someone for not having my same “privileges”, I treat humans as humans, it’s what is in their hearts that is important, never their ethnicity or background. I think everyone matters, but I do understand how that view takes away from the myriad of voices trying to finally be heard. (And please please understand I am not referring to all white people either, just the nasty ones that dont know how to play nice, you know which ones I am referring to.) I can’t tell you how many times I wish I could peel off this white skin, or wish my native Yurok blood was more dominant. So many times I’ve hung my head in shame and embarrassment to have the same skin color as some of these people. I can feel it already the flack I’m going to catch for writing this, but it’s the truth, my truth, no one else’s. Does it make me a bad person? I don’t think so. I think it shows my love and empathy for the human race that has been systematically killing people due to the color of their skin or their status in life. I think it shows my desire to live in a world where the dominant species functions solely out of love, respect, fairness and justice. To live in a world where all life is precious, to everyone, regardless of anything else. I really feel I may have bitten off more than I can chew with this one. All I can ask is before you respond, to take a deep breath and at the very least, attempt to see where I am coming from. Please be gentle.