the doctor asks: do i want to hurt myself?

i answer honestly: no

the doctor asks: do i want to hurt others?

i answer honestly: no

the doctor asks: do i have suicidal thoughts

I answer honestly: yes, i want to die

i am non-violent, i dont want to hurt myself

i am non-egocentric, I dont want to bother others

I do not want to jump in front of a train

feel the pain of impact

and shut a subway down for hours

I do not want to jump off a building

or shot myself with a gun

i do not want to create a mess of blood and body

for someone to have to clean

i do want to die

if there were a chant i could say before bed

to let death take me in my sleep

i’d say it

i do want to die

if there were a chant i could say

to let me die in the sunshine, overlooking the beauty of nature

i would say it

yes doctor, i want to fir