Hitting the wall while learning Javascript

I have just completed week seven at The Iron Yard in St. Petersburg, Florida and I can officially say I have hit the wall. By Friday I was physically, emotionally, and mentally drained.

I am at the point where I feel as if I have become a failure. I feel as if I have faked my way through the previous weeks. Even though I struggled I was able to get help to complete the homework.

This weekend’s homework was to work on a sound-player. It requires us to use Javascript, Backbone (models, collections, views, routers), SoundCloud, and FireBase.

I used the previous sound-player app we had used to get me to a point that I could continue building on to it. I retyped eveything using it as an example, trying to understand every step that we took, wanting to know what piece of code linked to another.

After all was said and done I was able to get myself back to that last point, but when it came to adding on to it I fell flat on my face. I am struggling on things that seem like the should be simple, like on-click events. I can’t even begin to fathom how to pull data into FireBase.

I’ve reached the point where I need to decide if I want to continue on or walk away. I feel the frustration building up each time I go to work on this project, I want to be able to do it but fear that it is beyond my ability. I am continually reminded by others that I have only been doing this for 7 weeks and I am still learning and will have more to learn. I want this so badly, I want to learn, and I get excited when things can work.

I finally have an idea for my final app, and I want to see it come to life. I’m hoping that if I can make it work the way I want that it will be a great learning tool not only for myself but possibly for future Iron Yard students or anyone else trying to learn how to do this. I’m making the decision to keep moving forward to the best of my ability. I want this.

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