Update: Struggling to Escape

It’s hard to put into words what I’m feeling right now, but I’ve been glossing over this decision since I last posted about where I was in my life presently and how I wanted to go forward.

Trying to take a hiatus from writing just didn’t work for me. Even though it is something that is weighing me down quite a significant amount, causing me to feel sorry for myself at each juncture because of an unrelenting feeling to not succeed — it didn’t work. I love technology, I love(d) writing about it, but the drama I have been exposed to over the last few weeks isn’t what I signed up for, nor do I want to get involved in.

I’m not here to burn bridges, I’ve done that plenty of times before and it got me nowhere. Decisions were made by both parties, they went their separate ways and whatever; it’s done. Somewhere in the time I last posted about my whole life situation, I just gave up on writing and I am 100% sure that feeling will never come back. One thing I loved to do was pretty much syphoned out of me for disagreements that I really didn’t want to get involved in, and I didn’t for the most part. But that feeling of a rupture in the force just disconnected me from the people I worked alongside, and friendships were lost during this whole debacle.

I started writing to get away from the dramas that were going on. I just wanted a blank canvas to write something and publish it for the world to see. It seems that it did the opposite after being exposed to so many things that I didn’t want to happen during my tenure of writing. Writing, for the most part, was my escape and a way to deal with things.

I have been constantly overlooking this feeling in my mind for a week or so now, and I’ve decided that I’m no longer going to be writing. I’ve lost all love for it, and I always said that if it felt like a chore to me, then I would just stop.

I will finish any reviews that I have left to finish at MobileTechTalk, but after that I will no longer be writing for them, or anyone for that matter.

I still have a love for podcasts, however. I see it as a friendly conversation that the whole world can see, voicing your opinions on current technology topics. I have no idea what I’m going to do in terms of that yet, but at the moment I’m just trying to concentrate on me.

TL;DR: I found my love for writing as it was my one place to get away from it all. Now it’s too much of a chore that has gotten to a point where I lost all love for it.