Finding my Strengths and Weeding out the Weaknesses

“Yea, I know that I am nothing; as to my strength I am weak; therefore I will not boast of myself, but I will boast of my God, for in his strength I can do all things; yea,behold, many mighty miracles we have wrought in this land, for which we will praise his name forever.” — Alma 26:12

This week has been incredible. On Tuesday my trainer, Hermana Ramos, left to serve as a Sister Training Leader in San Francisco!

My new companion, Sister Heyn is so awesome! I’ve only been her companion for 5 days and we’re already getting along super well! She’s a super fun missionary, and also a hard worker. I love doing missionary work.

This week has helped me see just how far I’ve come as a missionary. Since my trainer left, I had to take charge for a few days while my new companion adjusted to the area. Those first couple days, I felt the responsibility of the area weighing on my shoulders. I remember feeling so anxious and worried about balancing everything we had to do, and knowing that I was the only one who knew what to do and how to do it.

However, these past few months I’ve been learning how to yoke myself with the Savior. So, having had so much experience over the past few months, I did what I am used to: I prayed, I studied my heart out, and then I went to work. Soon, the fear and anxiety of failure dissolved as I found a new happiness in the work with my new companion.

So, this week, I found a lot of my strengths. As I worked alongside my new companion and the Savior, I learned that I teach to peoples’ needs, and that the Spirit is present when I testify. To me, the biggest success I can have as a missionary is when the Holy Ghost teaches and testifies through the things I say. Developing Spanish has helped a lot with being able to say the things the Lord wants me to say, in order for this to happen.

I do not write this blog post to boast of my strengths, but to help each of you understand that it is only through the Savior that we can be made strong. Missionaries don’t have power when they speak just because we’re well-versed in the scriptures and get along with everyone. We have power when we teach because we are constantly relying on Jesus Christ to guide us and strengthen us. When people hear our words, they become the words of the Savior, because we are His representatives, and relying on Him.

So far, we have two investigators planning to be baptized at the end of this month. My companion and I are working super hard to make sure they know how to rely on Jesus Christ so that they can be prepared for baptism by their set date. I have seen so many people gain testimonies, and instead of choosing to act on them, they reject the path and lose the Spirit. This has shown me that we cannot merely rely on ourselves. We must remain close to the Savior.

I promise each of you that the Savior is there for us. He will help us and lift us when we choose to come unto Him. Our efforts and strengths will be magnified through Him and His grace. I witness this every day as a missionary. Because I know how to rely on Christ, I am commissioned to help others learn how to do so as well. If you don’t know how to do so, start with a prayer.

Les Amo!

Hermana Stockwell