The illusions we create

We create questions to find answers. We try to give our best to find answers so that one day we might find the meaning to all of it. I do it all the time, it does not lead anywhere but to more questions that are still unanswered and that makes me feel miserable. Whenever I look back at the past, there are some things I wish I never did, I have some regrets but if you give me a life again I am pretty sure I would do that all again because I kind of loved it when I was doing them. Life is a sad journey (this is what I feel right now), you live to die another day. The people you love will leave you someday. They will create a void that can never be filled and you will do the same in someone else’s life. Sometimes I feel that the things we do, are they all just to avoid the void in our hearts. We watch sitcoms, go to movies, hangout with random people. How much of it is real ? or is everything a illusion we create so that we do not have to look into that empty pit of our heart and mind where some questions still scream to the extent that they deafen our ears and numb the brain. I feel everyone has an escape route (or they eventually find one). I fool myself a lot. I want to stop it but it will take time I guess. There is a point in Calvin and Hobbes where Calvin is angry and he says “Reality continues to ruin my life.” It is hard to admit but it has some truth to it. You cannot enjoy life all the time, that’s not how it works because

If good things lasted forever, would we really appreciate how precious they are ?

I think NO. You go through hell to get a glimpse of heaven and the cycle continues and rest of the mediocre crowd rots on the Earth.