I grew up in a unique and ordinary family. It was not as beautiful as I have seen in the movies, but it was not the worst one, either. That was why I was not aware that my family was and is always dysfunctional.
For a long time, I never felt I was enough or did enough for them. I couldn’t be happy if they were not happy. I suffered a great deal of codependency and need for their approval. I didn’t know that my life was mine to live.
I decided to generously share my story, and I sincerely hope it will reach someone who needs it. …
I wished Angel could be mine forever.
I wished our age gap was smaller, then perhaps we could build a future together.
What was I doing here, having a sexual affair with a man way — way younger? A woman at my age should get married and have a baby. But how could I resist? Angel reminded me of my first love. It was pure and fearless. With him, I felt aliveness. I became eighteen again.
I wanted to do everything in my power to keep him with me, but that wouldn’t be fair. He still has a long adventure ahead. I would be mad if anyone would stop me when I was twenty. Even those experiences were not all good; I would not change anything. It made me “Me” today. …
I started to believe more and more that money is a form of energy. I began to have more faith that there is no need to know precisely how the money would be manifested.
A year back, I made a promise to God that I would never ever again work for money and money alone as what I did in the past. Not that I think money was a bad thing, but I realised that in the past, my driven behind making money was all about fear, fear of uncertainly future. That was the reason why I worked so hard and accumulated wealth. …
To Lalita, My love
The darkness of the night, where the stars don’t shine,
can’t dim the light in my heart where you are.
The fluttered breeze can’t be feared as your love keeps me warm.
Life completes with your kiss sealed on my lips. You’re my home where I belong.
I wonder what kind of spell you put on me. After these two years, I am still madly in love with you, like the very first day we met.
We will be watching the fireworks rising over the river as we count down to the new year together. …
Lighting a lamp for someone will brighten your own path, The Buddha
Dear readers, I am so happy to see you here. Welcome to my home in the virtual world. Please take a seat and make yourself feel comfortable, stay as long as you want. I love to have your companion.
Since a very young age, I always wondered what happiness is all about? …
When I lost the most precious love I was so attached to.
It was not hard to leave another thing behind: the EGO.
I knelt down and surrendered to something greater than myself.
A miraculous event happened. My Intuition — the internal GPS — took over my practical mind and led me to follow my heart to the tropical island where the story “Wild Love Holy Island” has taken place
Wild Love Holy Island is a short story series of romantic spiritual-sexuality. Each story is complete on its own and has a meaningful message. If you connect all of them, it will be a great big story following the main character, Lalita.
A broken heart that hurts so good it made me (Lalita) look beyond the surface and asked myself hard questions. What is true love? With God’s mercy, He transformed grief into a gift. I surrendered to God’s plan and walked in the wilderness of God’s Grace. …
The clouds outside the window of my business seat reflect the tears on my face. My lover sits one seat in front of me. We don’t sit together and we don’t speak to each other.
I should have seen that bad sign when he booked our flight with separate seat assignments. Why didn’t he take that connected two empty seats on the first row?
A week ago, we were looking for a flight from Busan (South Korea) to Bali (Indonesia). We were lucky to find a great deal in Business Class from Busan to Jakarta (Indonesia) with a stopover in Narita, Japan. …
Who burn Amazon? That was the first question that came to my mind, following by the tear at the corner of my eyes.
While watching those footages of burning amazon forest videos, I could hear the spirits of trees, earth, water, and aminals screamed out for help.
Amazon is the lung of the planet. Without the lung how the body would be alive. I felt like dying as fast as the progression of Amazon’s damage.
I wanted to look out for someone to blame. Who? Who to responsible? The messages in the media were going in the same direction of grief, anger, and hopeless. People pointed fingers out each other. It became the society of blaming and complaining. Whose false? governments? farmer? president? industry? consumer? …
If you find yourself have daily worries in your life. Either that be future, financial, friendship, or love. I have a special message for you, and I would like to invite you to put your worries down and offer those fears to the Lord Jesus and give him your trust that he will take care of you and everything you need in your life.
These words of Him in Luke 12:22–34 have said it all His promises.
Do Not Worry
22 Then Jesus said to his disciples: “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23 For life is more than food and the body more than clothes. 24 Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25 Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to your life[a]? …