Why are we here? I will be 81 this month. Both of us are enduring illness and have thought about that question. I now wish intelligent life had not evolved. Our awareness is a curse. As I see it our purpose is to produce more victims like us. Not religious but now think the heaven many dream of is simply dying and losing awareness. Of course we will not be aware of not being aware. By the way, as a man I wish I could help my spouse, but as is often the case, I am nowa burden for her.