Knowing one’s seasons

This entry was written a year ago August 28, 2016. Yet the same feelings are stirred for this summer.
Ohhh the summer has passed and I know I started the summer break with an intention of doing an online learning program for parents… what happened?
I experienced a different kind of summer. The kind that got me so broody and reflective. Looking back I realized that part of “my” seasons in life is having periods of deep reverie and the periods July-August are my seeding periods. They are periods that remind me of the breast cancer period in my life and all the memories and learnings that went along with it.
These are periods where I get back to myself. To find ways to get me grounded. To go back to my source. For it is so easy to keep moving, but staying still is the hardest.
I had to tap in the collective knowledge and strength of family and friends to stir my musings and my mournings. And through all these periods, I tried tuning in with myself. Daily check ins. Daily question of “how are you doing Lana?” Daily listening to what my body is telling me.
So this summer I let go of my initial intentions not because I wasn’t passionate about them but because I needed space. I needed time to hibernate so I can be fully present.
How was this summer for you?
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