I have recognize many of these times in my life and even a time that I don’t think I can fully explain. It was a time where I already felt that. Like suicide wouldn’t change anything because I felt absolutely nothing. I woke up in the world was dark and the sun never really quite roads all the way in the sky. I could cut off my arm and not feel any pain. That lasted for probably about a week andit was very easily the worst time in my life. My circumstances haven’t entirely changed but I have found something to keep me motivated and I have fought tooth and nail towards that goal. I grew up in a home where I heard those things and more on a daily basis. Those scars cannot be healed in this life. I too offer my friendship and my ear to any and all who need it. Thank you Minna.