Ali, I am a stage IV metastatic melanoma survivor and you are so right. Managing survivorship is completely different from being in the thick of treatment. I am on disability and have a hard time moving on to full-time work because I don’t know where to look for a job that would be understanding of the fatigue, pain, nausea, and other side effects of having had cancer and treatment. And I know the feeling of not wanting to talk about how awful you actually feel — you don’t want to be the person who’s always sick and you don’t want people to only know you as that person who has cancer. But it does help to have people to talk to. I would suggest a couple of things: find a support group. There has to be groups in LA. It will be worth it to be around people who understand what you are going through. And try to find a local place that offers palliative care (this is basically a team of people who help manage your symptoms and side effects of post-treatment survivorship — everything from pain and nausea to scan anxiety and nutrition). And always know that you are not alone in your misery when things get bad. Thank you for sharing what you are going through because you, also, have just let a lot of other people know that they are also not alone in what they are going through. Good luck and I hope you find some great support out in LA.