The Curse of Intuition
Imagine being able to arrive at a conclusion or an answer without having to think about it or sometimes, without even having to ask the question yet. Intuition as I have been aware is exactly what that is. Even as a child, this has been a part of me readily available at my disposal without me realizing it exists. In a world where practical data is being given much more importance than those invisible to our eyes, the thriving of intuition is hampered.
As much as I would not like this to be an essay filled with typology related concepts, I just cannot help but to add some. Knowing now that people who uses—or trains—their intuition more makes their conclusions more likely to be right, empowers me as a natural intuitive thinker with introverted intuition as his dominant function.
I believe that Ni-users not only have the monopoly of being able to use intuition correctly but also they have the specific tools needed to be able to use it effectively. As a matter of fact, I think intuition is designed to be introverted, subjective and functioning as invisible as it can be which is not the case with other types of intuition, that even though still working subconsciously, is almost consciously observable given how noticeable it is. Another thing that gives this elation I feel, is the fact that the auxiliary function meant to help my dominant one, happens to be a judging-thinking kind. Not only it provides more rationality to the conclusions my intuition comes up with compared to a judging-feeling function, it supplies additional information to my storehouse of data—my subconscious where the intuition gets its reference. If that does not contribute to a path achieving an almost infallible kind of intuition, I don’t know what is.
But empowered and acting mighty as I might, there are numerous unpleasant things that this power of intuition entails. Intuition allows its users to see beyond what is presented to them. It lets the skilled users to see almost everything: what people really mean, their vulnerabilities, secret desires and fantasies, veiled inauthenticity, masked pain, internal happiness, fears, attempts of deceit, lies and truths. It can be quite draining to be bombarded with these sudden flashes of reality especially since intuition does not work consciously and surfaces beyond our control. Imagine the pain of being able to see hidden intentions behind the comforting words of one of your closest friends. It would tear you, deciding whether you would confront them into telling you something unsaid which would most likely just make you a paranoid, let it pass and just keep that pain to yourself—good luck living like that—or wait for the right moment and catch them on their own words; all of which, though isn’t very appealing if you are striving to have a harmonious, conflict-free life.
I am aware that it is in all of our knowledge that the world, or the people living in it rather, isn’t perfect, but being able to validate and see it with your own eyes takes up a lot of courage so that I would continue looking. Ignorance really has its bliss. Everyone is exposed with their mistakes, imperfections and flaws. There have been numerous situations where I have found myself regretting that I have learned something I shouldn’t have. It preoccupied me and undeniably affected future decisions that when compared with a version of myself who is unaware, definitely seems to be very different. There were a couple of decisions mostly made through my intuition that would totally be not the case have I not used it.
A simple, ordinary life usually is not one an intuitive should expect to live. Most people uses a more technical, practical and concrete system of thinking which may be seen by an intuitive as rather slow. It becomes very frustrating for a heightened intuition-user to talk to someone who needs to go through all the steps and processes before grasping what it is that one really mean.
It gets exhausting when you have gotten to the finish line by car and wait for them since they’re on foot. Blurting out observation out loud tends to be regrettable once they ask for detail after detail. Somehow, explaining everything carefully takes away the fun and genuine connection between two people who are expected to know each other by heart—by intuition.
It is as if you are damned to live alone without finding someone who can understand you in just a few words or no words at all. There is a dictum that says we shouldn’t assume unless something was directly stated but that is too mechanical, too robotic and is only risky for those not used to using their intuition.
Intuits should understand and put to mind that intuition, no matter how abstractly clear may it be for them, is still internal and subconscious. It is in the hands of other equally intuitive people to match their own and fully grasp what they mean. It should also be in the hands of conscious helping functions to make sense, keep in check and relay to the outside world what the intuition is telling them.
These are all frustrating and saddening for intuition-users but must be the case in order to be fully understood in this world populated by non-intuitives/lesser intuitives.
originally posted at my blog: http://www.odd-feels.tumblr.com
