Wow ! What a ride ! Thank you for sharing this. As for me, I am a woman who sometimes drinks, usually not a lot. Well, you could tell me, what’s the problem then ? It’s not really a problem, more a question of what I want for myself. Too many times, I drink without joy. And I don’t want that. I want joy in everything I do. By joy, I don’t mean being positive and always feeling up which doesn’t exist, I mean feeling at one with myself. Being able to feel what’s right for me to do in that very moment. Maybe it’s saying yes to that glass of wine, maybe it’s saying, thank you but I’ll have a soda, because in either case I can feel this is what helps me the most to live the moment. I am learning to listen to myself to the deepest. And if I say yes to a glass of wine, that doesn’t mean saying yes to another one is the right thing to do. Maybe, if I drink that one glass of wine with joy, with my body and soul being right there in the moment, I’ll get some clarity. I’ll find out that all I wanted was to slowly sip it and then go home and have some sleep. And what applies for wine/alcohol applies for everything in my life, food, relationships, behaviors, habits…it’s all about turning re-actions into actions, turning being here and now on and off in being here and now…all the time. I am not there yet. Far from it. But the decision of heading there, and the many humble but real attempts I’m making everyday, are already a source of joy.

Thank you again for sharing Kristi and for allowing me to express myself.

I wish you a wonderful journey.