Went to the park after class today to take a breather. Sil and I didn’t know the other two would be in same seminar group as us and so I was wasn’t expecting to see them there. I was alright at first, settling down and all. And I wasn’t thinking about anything in particular but i started to have a panic attack, or at least what I think it was. My breathing gradually became laboured and I could hear my heartbeat in my ears. It got harder and harder to concentrate while the teacher was speaking. But thank God I made it through. I ran out after and I felt much better. It forced my heart rate to slow down. I think it’s purely a physical bodily reaction to seeing them now. There wasn’t any fear. I’ve thought things over a million times (Sil can vouch for that) and nothing regarding them is within my control now and I understand that. Sometimes the heart needs more time to accept what the mind already knows. I’ll be okay😌
So yes the park.
The swing is one of our favourite hangouts, really.
Lol. English people.
We headed to lidl to get a couple of things, but no one really gets “only a couple of things” from lidl. Lolol. Came out with one big bag of meats and bread and wraps and butter and mushrooms,etc. I only really spend on food!!!! 😅😅😅
Eating atas for lunch. Pumpkin soup, leftover baked salmon from yesterday, pate on toast and avocado spread on toast 😋 I took a nap after because sleeping after a meal is one of the best feelings in the world hahahahahh🐷🐷🐷
Got dragged for Run Wild by Princess today. We kinda agreed last week to go for this running group (life regrets). My elastic no tie shoelace broke so here are the boys helping me relace my shoes hehe thank you guys🙆🏻🙆🏻🙆🏻
I don’t know why I do these things to myself😩😩😩 Sil, Princess, Charles and I went for the “steady” group (=slow. There medium and fast too. Prince went for the latter.) I made it through although we lost the group towards the end because of my slowing down but what to do I haven’t run in eons lelelel. I need to work on my stamina.
Al Jazeera for Dinner :’) the rice is seriously the best. I need to learn how to make this. Princess and I shared a half chicken on rice. It was so good. I don’t come here enough because it’s a tad far (Curry mile) but this is soooo worth the travel.
Mango cheesecake! The cream didn’t set very well (okay not very much it wasn’t firm) so we ate it straight out of the cake tin. The taste was on point though. Probably just work on the mango cream proportions.
Late night studying because we have work to clear. Sil and I signed up for things spontaneously lol and so we gotta get work done to enjoy those things.
2.09am. Time to sleep!