I fully trust God

This washed over me this evening while I was doing my nightly meditation routine — that I fully trust in God.

What this means to me is that I fully trust in God/my divine to have the right things happen and to always have my back. I’m not saying that the right thing is always the easy or unpainful thing. That’s just it. It’s trusting God when things get rough, knowing there’s a reason or purpose that I will hopefully understand one day but probably not now. Trusting in that. This has been my MO for as long as I can remember, back into childhood, and it hasn’t failed me. And I know it won’t.

I’m one of those people who have always felt like I have a million dollars in the bank and a giant safety net poised under me just in case I fall. I feel safe. Mostly. Yes — I’ve had some major freak out times in my life and feeling like I’ve crawled through the whole dark night of the soul, but even then, even in the midst of all the craziness, I knew God had it. And I really think that’s what got me through it — that faith. And it’s only grown strong since as I continue to deepen my spiritual practices.