Adventures and More, Never Settle
Ever since I was younger I didn’t do much. As a family, we didn’t go to that many places which I didn’t really mind growing up. However, as I’ve gotten older I’ve had this itch to explore. Now that I’m in my twenties that sense of adventure has grown to where I can no longer push it to the back burner. I’ve never really had someone to say hey let’s go do this or that, but now I do. My boyfriend has taken me more places to explore than I’ve ever been in my life and that’s only over the course of about five months. I’ve been to a few places, but most of them were with school and we had schedules we had to keep. We never just went out and explored. Now I have a chance to do that. However, I hate going out by myself. I always need to have someone with me. I’m sure that with time I’ll get over that too, but one step at a time.
I want to go out and explore the world. I’ve been able to in some ways but in others I’m scared to go off on my own. With this new relationship, I’ve been going out more and exploring more. I’ve just been doing more overall in the recent months. In some ways, I think that’s due to my boyfriend saying hey let’s do this or that. In other ways, I think that’s due to the fact that I’m becoming more independent. I’m breaking out of the little bubble I live in and actually trying to live my life to its fullest. I’m not playing it as safe as I used to anymore. I’m actually going out and having fun. He’s the one saying let’s do this or that most of the time, but I’ll get there.
I’m scared of a lot of things, but I know the only way to conquer that fear is to go out and do things. I think I’m so scared to do things because I’m afraid of failing. Failure comes with life and I know that, it’s just a matter of me growing a tougher skin and embracing that failure. That’s what I have trouble with, embracing failure. If I get a C on a paper at school I get upset. This time around if I get a C I’ll be happy, as long as I did my best. Failure is what’s been holding me back from getting a job or really trying to follow my dreams of being a writer. I know that I’ll be met with criticism everywhere I go. Learning how not to be overly defensive of my work and my thoughts is something I’m still working on. Something that with the help of other people, like my parents and my boyfriend, I know I can overcome. There are things I need to do on my own and I know that, I also know that I’ll need a bit of help along the way.
This sense of adventure isn’t going anywhere anytime soon. I’m going to keep getting out there even when I want to stay at home and do nothing, especially when I want to stay at home and do nothing. As people, we can’t just sit around and do nothing with our lives, we have to do something. Whether that something is to get out and explore the world or simply get out once a week and do something locally. Whatever you do don’t settle for the same thing over and over again. Don’t settle for just going out to the movies or out to dinner with your significant other. Go on different kinds of dates, whether with a person or by yourself. Taking yourself out on a date might sound weird, but why can’t that be a thing too?
I settled for movie dates for six years, don’t do what I did. Go out for long walks in a city you don’t know. Dates don’t always have to cost money. Go on a picnic to a park. Go dancing in the rain. I settled for someone who when we went to our high school dances together he’d stand there as I danced around him. We finally went to a wedding together after five and a half years of being together and when I tried to get him to dance he shook his head. The most adventurous thing we did together was move in together and not even six months later I was back in my parents’ house. I was going to settle for someone who didn’t want to do all the things I wanted to do. I didn’t see that until after he broke up with me. What everyone was telling me I finally saw for myself. Now, I have someone who will take me on adventures. Adventures I didn’t even know I wanted to go on.
We went to Cedar Point recently. It was definitely an adventure I didn’t know I wanted until he told me we were going. I got scared on a few rides, but that’s what adventure is all about. I conquered some fears that day and now I can’t wait to go back. That day was one of the best days I’ve had in a while. There were a few rides I wasn’t sure about, but once I was on them I knew I’d ride them again the next time we came. I know for a fact that I never would have been able to go if it weren’t for my boyfriend. I’d never even thought about going to Cedar Point again after going in eighth grade, but now I’m excited to go back.
My ex never would have taken me on any of these adventures. I would have been stuck in a relationship that was going absolutely nowhere. I’m aware of this now, but when I was actually in the relationship I didn’t see it. Now, I’m in a relationship that I feel is going places and many different ones at that. Which just goes to show that you should never settle for anything. If you want to go on adventures then you should be able to. If you want to dance at weddings with someone then you should be able to. You should be able to have everything you want and more in your significant other, not feel like you’re settling. My sense of adventure has been fueled by my boyfriend not diminished. That’s how love is supposed to work.