someone like me
at lying completely still for 8 hours straight.
it’s almost funny.
Well, not funny.
Because if you fidget too much in your sleeping bag,
someone might realize
Someone might realize how apparent they are,
the dark monsters that come out at night to haunt
The ones that circle
until they swallow you up whole.
The ones your friends and your family and your acquaintances can’t see
at sleepovers, at home, in boys’ beds at night.
When your mind won’t stop racing,
swirling around so fast that it almost sweeps you up completely.
But it doesn’t. And you don’t move.
So you just continue there, lying