A letter to my ex- bestfriend
You know, It’s actually funny. Before you I never believed in having a ‘’best friend.’’
Having that one person you open up to 100%.
Having that one person you can trust anything and everything with.
Having that one person to cry to when your heart Is weighing heavy on you. It all seemed too good to be true.
I told you things I thought I would have never let leave my mouth. You knew things noone else did or ever will. I let you see me at my weakest points. I’ve broken down to you, countless times. I regret it all.
I thought our friendship was going to last a life time. I thought all those plans we made about our future, was going to happen for sure.
‘’I can’t wait to be your future bridesmaid!’’, ‘’ I can’t wait until our future kids are best friends!’’, ‘’ I hope we’re neighbors one day!’’
There was never a doubt in my mind you wouldn’t be there, by my side, in the distant future. I would never in my right mind think that you would ever do me dirty… and I was wrong. More wrong than I’ve ever been.
How could you? How could you be so heartless? How could you act like our friendship never even exsisted?
Lets get one thing clear. This is not an ‘’I miss you’’ letter, because frankly, I do not miss you, at all. In fact, I think you are a terrible person for what you have done to me and I genuinely feel sorry for the next person to trust you as their bestfriend.
I hope she doesn’t open up to you like I did.
I hope she doesn’t trust you with her secrets, like I did.
There comes a time in your life when you realize, how much more can I do for one person? I was always there for you when you needed me and when you went and turned your back on me that last time, It hit me. This is it, I’m done. You never deserved to have me as a friend period nevertheless, your BEST friend. I feel like a fool when I remember how hard I tried to save our friendship when It was failing. Every fight I went and apologized for even when I wasn’t wrong in the situation, just because I missed you. It makes me sick to realize when I was giving my 98% you were giving your famous 1%. You just didn’t care and It was not fair.
No more will I ever ‘’fight’’ to be in anybodys life.
Not as a bestfriend.
Not as a girlfriend.
Not as an acquaintence. Not ever.
It was time for me to let go of a friendship that no longer existed. I had to stop fighting for it. I just had to.
Overall, just want to say thank you for giving me another reason not to trust anyone I meet.
Thank you for adding on to my insecurities.
Thank you for showing me what It’s like to have a shit friend, so when I find a real friend It’ll be like miracle and I’ll apreciate her more than ever.
Hope you have a nice life and learn how to become a better person.
I hope you grow up and learn to treat others with respect.
Wish you the best.