
I lost everything, so there was nowhere to go but up. When you have a lot to lose, you become risk averse, and tend to have a lot of inertia and resistance to change. However, when you accept you have nothing, it becomes much easier to change.
…k everything away from me, and gave me a lot of pain. I was very motivated to get rid of this pain. While I was in there doing the inner work to let go of the pain, I decided it was time to rewrite my entire operating system and kernel. Why not right? I’m in there already, might as well pay down a lifetime’s worth of technical debt. Another way of putting this is make lemonade when the universe shits lemons upon your head :).