I want to thank you so much for this post, I blocked out my assault for many years, never told anyone until last year and straight away I convinced myself I was over it like it wasn't effecting me at all. I refused to let anyone touch me or be near me, I was always too innocent. I have had a Boyfriend for near 6 months now. But I also realise, I was never over it, just adapting, you helped me realise that and now I have room to let it hurt me for alittle so that maybe I can heal. Thank you so much.