It’s Growing On Me
Today I realized that I continue to tell people that this new life is “growing on me” and it is getting on my nerves!!
To be honest, I have moments when I think about how amazing this is and other moments when I think about how I would gladly trip an old person on the street to have American fast food (specifically Chipotle or Chick-fil-A)!
Don’t get me wrong, this opportunity is amazing. I am grateful. This is once in a lifetime. I will forever be changed. BUT…there are some moments when I miss home and what it comes with. Driving a car. Walking around Target for no reason. Buying Starbucks (not in Target though, it’s not that good in Target). Seeing movies. Speaking English and people being able to understand and respond. And of course all of my friends and family.
I do not think I will ever really feel myself here. Probably because I know I will return to the states in a couple of years. Perhaps, if this was a permanent change I would feel more inclined to clear my mind and really be a part of this life, this culture.
This is what my students are struggling with now! They know they will return to the Target shopping, Chipotle eating, car driving life they left behind for the semester.
Of course, it is a little different for me. I am older and know how important it is to truly immerse myself into the culture…and I am here longer.
I don’t know where to go from here…
Originally published at leapoffaith.blogginger.com on September 26, 2015.