I used to be so scared of letting myself fall back on water and float. I could fall into water with my face down but not with face up. I tried telling myself that the body floats when I get that balance irrespective of whether it’s upside or downside but for some reason face down felt easier.
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It may be because, with face down, I was able to see what I was falling into.
It may be because, with face down, I was able to see what I was falling into. It may be the same reason as to why some people are not comfortable falling backwards. I had the same trouble when I had to rapple down the hill. I could climb up but not rapple down backwards because it felt like I am venturing an unknown path; the toughest point while rappling down was making that 90 degrees backward fall. Recently, somehow I decided to take that fall. I let my head go inside water a few times, breathing in some water and then eventually after some attempts I was able to float. The best part about floating with face up was that I could just let my body enjoy the buoyancy without having to hold my breath. In a couple of more attempts, I also started getting better at balancing and controlling my body, got a knack of pulling the legs down when I lost balance and not going head in first. After all these, as I floated on the water, I gazed at the starry sky; as my ears were inside water, the sound of my breath is the only thing I heard; and as my body floated, I was able to realise how light can letting go feel.
As my body floated, I was able to realise how light can letting go feel.
Even though I wasn’t good at holding my balance for a longer duration, I did get better at letting myself fall into the unknown and as I did that, I realised that it revealed to me some beautiful dimensions I haven’t perceived so far.