Eroding Potential

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I recently entered my mid-20’s and I am continuously harboring this feeling of my potential eroding away. I can’t write as I used to, I have a hard time thinking, I cant put in as many hours in work as before and etc. Before this, I used to be a thinker. I would continuously be thinking, processing and solving random pieces of information. When stuck in traffic I would be adding the numbers on the number plates of cars till it reached a hundred and repeat till I had reached my destination. When I would read a new text, I would immediately absorb it and make sense out of it. I feel as if this joy of understanding has been taken away from me bit by bit and I am being left with the feeling of inadequacy.

The question that needs to be reflected on is “ What Happened?” and is this normal?. I remember an MBA senior once told me that as soon as she entered her mid-20’s she lost all sense of thinking. I wonder is it an age thing? Although, I do have another theory. The subject which I am currently studying belongs from social Science and I always had a science brain. So what is a science brain? A brain that can understand and remember complex scientific methods, processes and definitions but has a tough time remembering abstract social ideas which can be interpreted in multiple ways. Why do I say I have a science brain? Because, I just read “ THE MATH BOOK” for fun! I am not saying I remember every concept or anything from it but it was relaxing to read. I have-not studied sciences and mathematics since 10th grade, therefore, it is plausible that I wont understand a scientific paper if I read one. I am no genius. But, It is becoming frustration to learn abstract concepts in social sciences and fail to remember different theories established by authors only through intellectual discourse and with out any proof. I slowly feel as if my mind is eroding and my potential with it.

Is there a solution for this problem? I ask.

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Behind this blog is a young ambitious South Asian Woman that was Galvanized on 4 - Oct - 2021 to share her ideas, story and aspirations. Welcome!

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