They tell me that the difference is in the making
But now I`m not so sure
It`s got me asking questions on the questions asked
And what I`m living for
And after a while of thinking and aspiring
I still don`t know what I`m doing
But I do know what I am not doing,
Avoiding, and eschewing
I am not living for boys or girls
I am not living for any other
I am not living right now
Just so I can grow up later
To be somebody`s mother
I am not living for school or getting schooled
I am not living for eating or not eating
I am not living for excercize, sex, or
Even just competing
I am not living for pleasure, pain, or (creating) violence
And I`m not ‘living for the ride’
I`m not living for you, or him, or her
And all joking aside
I`m not living because I have to
Or because of guilty obligations
Or because I want to spend my whole life going in and out
Of buses and subway stations
I`m not living because I like it
I`m not living for myself
And I`m not just saying that now
Even though later I`ll be living for someone else
And don`t you think it`s funny?
How all the reasons vary?
And how it`s usually the people that you love
That make the situation hairy?
And how nothing seems to make sense to me
Except for this one illumination
This one give and take phenomena
That I discovered after much consideration
That no matter what comes next for me,
As long as I`m alive
No matter what the other players say,
I`m living for the life.
