Where Do I Begin ?

So today for me is all about reflecting.

It’s the start of a new month and most importantly we are already half way through the year, so I just wanted to take stock of everything I have written on here and remind myself of why I started writing in the first place.

You see a lot of people have often commented on my transparency in my blogs, some in a positive way and some in a negative way.

But the truth is, though — I don’t know how not to be honest in my writing or about how I feel. I have tried to, several times, and failed at it, several times. I can’t bite my tongue. If I feel shit, I feel shit. If I feel good, I feel good. If I am in love, I want to share that feeling with everyone. If my heart is broken, I want to share that with everyone too.

I want people to know both sides of the coin.

Ultimately there will be many of you who will hate what I write and what I reveal, and some of you may judge.

But I really do not care.

I am on a journey to try and find out who I am and what I believe in

And I purposefully make sure I talk about what I want to talk about.

About my truth.

I grow tired of meeting people, who can’t be vulnerable and tell me what they are really feeling.

In fact, I have been trying my utmost hardest to prune out from my life those sort of people and those sort of conversations. It’s boring and it’s a waste of my time and it’s a waste of your time too.

I feel I do not have the time or sanity to pop off into the corner to write about imaginary people or imaginary feelings.

So yes this is why I am so honest on here, whether the world understands or not is a conversation for a different day.

For me, it’s not about posting a picture of a me drinking a Virgin Mojito by a sunset, because, who cares?

It’s about providing value.

I want to add value to you and the moment I stop being honest, I stop adding value and then there’s no point of writing.

So many things I want to talk about but it’s taking so much time to spill onto a page.

These are just some of the blog posts I’d love to write but just don’t know which one to begin with. Any ideas?

1. The Six Best Items I’ve Stolen From Boyfriends and Will Never Give Back
2. I’d Rather Get To Know You In Person
3. Why I Married A Muslim Man
4. Things I Said I Regret But Actually Don’t Regret at all
5. The Top Worst Things I Have Lied About
6. The Worst Thing About Being A Strong Woman
7. Why I Hate Celebrating My Birthday
8. All Those Times Where The Grass Has Not Been Greener
9. What It’s Like To Have a Ridiculously Beautiful Sister

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FYI: this article originally appeared on my website.