a week before my birthday

Lindaini
2 min readAug 4, 2023

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Hi! How’s life?

Photo by Annie Spratt on Unsplash

When I was a child, I saw adults and felt like, Oh, how to be them! How grateful I am to be an adult! They can go everywhere, every time, without being supervised by their parents; they can live their lives without being under their parents decisions. LOL. The children’s thoughts are weird.

And here I am, a week before turning 22 — I am almost 3 years into my 20s — realizing that adulting is not only about you going wherever you want, wearing outfits without fear of being commented on by your parents, and whatever else you could think about you and what your strict parents did to your life. It’s not only those things. Because it’s getting more complicated when you’re already an adult and everything about adult life

Adulting for me means being able to be alone.

be able to make our own decision, whether it’ll be high-risk or not.

be able to see the world from two perspectives so you don’t become judgmental.

Be able to understand and deal with the fact that the world isn’t always fair to you.

Adulting is accepting the cruel days you’ll have, not getting easily mad at the little tragedies you’ll face, and realizing that you live in the present and not in the past when you’re a child.

Adulting may be so hard for an early 20s person, but for me, it’s not getting much change, but now I realize there’s so much happening in my life, even with no particular changes, but I felt it.

On my birthday this year, there are not many things I want. I just want peace to live my day and survive again in a year — I’ll repeat my prayer every year. Because surviving in this world is one of my achievements.

I always try my best and keep going with my effort, even though life may be full of disappointment and not walk as your expectations, but that is life, right? Someone once said that if your dreams and goals always came true, you may forget how to pray.

I’d rather celebrate my birthday alone, which means buying my Korean bento cake, eating my favorite food, and wasting my birthday enjoying ‘me time.

Birthdays in the 20s are different, not too crowded. I love doing my activities alone; it feels quiet and peaceful.

Being 22 and still counting is not easy, and it is not the same as I thought before. There are so many life lessons I learn every day. I still learn to be the kind of person who is useful to others around me. Who can always bring kindness and live with grateful

I’ll try

I always try my best.

— Lndna

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