Thank You for This Second Chance

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Dearest [Redacted],

I know it must be strange to receive a note of thanks from me, and this note in particular which I know is far too late in being written, but I had to put into words my gratitude to you. I’m writing, finally, to say thank you for forgiving me when I needed it the most and deserved it the least.

Of course, I know you have not forgotten, and that is okay, I think it’s best neither of us ever does, but the subject has until now been too delicate, we have been too delicate (or maybe it’s only been me being so ashamed and afraid) to discuss it openly. I want to change that.

I want to say to you now not just how sorry I am — and I am so, so sorry, for letting you down, for hurting you, for making so many missteps on my way to back to you — but to let you know this single act of grace from you has been the most precious and life-changing gift I have ever received. This single act of forgiveness from you has meant everything.

Forgiveness should always be granted for the self first, not for the transgressor, and I hope first and foremost that you have found some peace with our past. No one talks, though, about how forgiveness can transform what is selfish, cruel, and thoughtless in us too. I want to thank you for all the ways that I have been transformed through the kindness you have shown me.

I am certain now how easy it is for each of us to fall and I know now that good is not something a person just is, but something a person must decide to be, work hard to be, in every minute. Being good takes courage. Your forgiveness has given me a chance to confront myself and accept fully my responsibility for the past and for our future.

I want you to know I am thankful for your heart and all the room you have given me there. Thank you for your patience and your understanding. Thank you, not just for this second chance — one I know you give every day — but for allowing me to prove I am worthy of it.

Yours always and truly,