and once you left, i let down my walls

i drowned myself, in tears and mascara chunks

watching you now, i regret faking strong

i regret not falling apart

where you could see me break

that night when you left, and i waited to crumple

i thought i shouldn’t let you see, what you did to my heart

but maybe if you did, i wouldn’t have fallen apart

or maybe you would have looked back, shook your head and walked off

into the distance, away from our ghosts

i look for you now

in car windows, inside stores

hell, i even glance out of my house

hoping to catch a glance of what was mine

yeah, i know, you’re never coming back

trust me, it hurts, but this hope refuses to leave me alone

like you did

yet every time i don’t see you, my heart breaks even more

i know i won’t ever see you, but my foolish mind won’t give up

i’m sorry, forgive me

i’m sorry, love me.