It has been five years but it still feels like it was yesterday. It was a relationship I thought would last. I broke up with you because you were no longer in loved with me.

Five years had passed and yet most days, I still think of you. How can I stop loving you? Why do I even think of you? Questions that remain unanswered.

I want to feel loved again, not by you. I want someone to come my way and yet if I don’t stop loving you, he will never come. I want my heart to belong to someone else and yet parts of it remain yours.

“Let it go, move on.” I always whisper it to myself, whenever thoughts of you, rule my mind. I always remember the good times and hardly the bad times. But I should not separate the good from the bad, it was the bad moments that pushed me to leave you. It was the bad times, that hurt me. It was the bad times that scarred me.

Five years after, I want a life without you. A mind free from thoughts of you and a heart that is free to love again. And today, I want to free myself from you, because if not today, when?