Missing the Feeling #WeedFree | Day 121
Undoubtedly, at least at this point, one of the most challenging aspects of quitting weed, for me, is missing the feeling of being high. I get that sounds kind of like a duh statement but I think it definitely bears discussing.
Perhaps it’s arrogant for me to think so, but I think that I really enjoyed getting high more than most. Ask anyone I used to smoke with and they’ll tell you how my demeanor and mood went from blah to total elation in the matter of a puff or two. It was pretty noticeable.
Pardon me for digging deeper into some concepts that might seem like common-sense, but this is how I believe I can best convey my own experience with quitting weed.
People Enjoy Feelings to Varying Degrees
Another obviously true statement, but I believe the consequences of this truth are pretty profound and also quite relevant to the process of quitting any substance to which one might be addicted.
You might love ice cream and candy while the next person has no particularly strong taste for sweets. Which person do you think would have the harder time adopting a sugar-free or low-sugar diet? Yep — the person who doesn’t care much for sweets, of course.
So, I’m sure you can see why I feel the need to bring this concept up regarding today’s blog which is all about Missing the Feeling. Somebody might say to me, “Weed isn’t a drug.” Or, “It’s not addictive.”
Another person might remark, “I don’t really like getting high, it makes me feel paranoid and then sleepy.” Yeah, well if I were like you, I probably wouldn’t be making such a big deal about quitting pot. I also wouldn’t be taking a hard-line all or nothing approach to my weed use. That’s the whole crux of addiction. Only addicts have a hard time limiting their substance use.
Why Do Certain People Like Certain Feelings / Substances More Than Others?
I’m certainly not a chemist or biologist by any stretch of the imagination, but my hunch is that there is a scientific explanation. My physiological makeup might blend better with one substance than yours might. Then, of course, there is the psychological component. The particular circumstances in my childhood regarding my environment and development might create aspects about myself that incline me towards abuse of one substance over another. So, my hunch (and the Narcotics Anonymous literature backs this up) is that addiction is both physical and mental. The NA text also says that addiction is spiritual but that’s a topic for another post.
So, getting back to the main point… I struggle with missing the feeling of being high on weed. Most pot smokers can probably relate to the feeling of missing the sensation of being high when weed isn’t available for one reason or another. Well, this missing feeling doesn’t go away just because one decides to quit smoking of their own free choice. At least, this has been my experience.
How Do I Get Past Missing the Feeling?
Many ways. Generally, there is probably no one-size-fits-all solution to this problem. My experience thus far leads me to suggest the following approaches:
- Time helps: As I build up clean time, I find my missing weed moments to grow in frequency, but then go away for periods of time. Early on in my recovery I didn’t really miss it at all, which is a phenomenon that recovering addicts refer to as “the pink cloud.” I’m only at the 4 months point right now so I suspect I still don’t have enough perspective to judge how much time will reduce my missing the feeling concern. Other recovering addicts have told me that time helps in thinking about using less and less.
- Just do something: Once again, this might seem like a duh remark, but that’s OK. The point of this blog is to guide and assist those who are trying to live #WeedFree not to teach complicated issues or make revolutionary breakthroughs in the science of addiction treatment. If you find something else to do with your time like writing a blog, doing art, going for a walk or calling a friend or loved one, you pass time while also finding something to enjoy that isn’t getting high on weed.
- Invest in my recovery: I have embraced Narcotics Anonymous pretty big-time as a recovery from addiction plan. I was not particularly fond of the notions put forth by NA when I heard about them while I was still smoking, but after deciding to give sobriety a try and going to my first meeting, I felt something powerful happening in the rooms. After some time regularly going to meetings and reading the NA literature, I find that the time I spend learning about and getting involved in the program, helps me feel less anxious I am about wanting to use.
My list was getting a little long in the tooth so I decided to stop at three tips for now, but that’s definitely not exhaustive. I think I’ll do other entire posts on specific recovery coping mechanisms that I have used and that work for me.
And… It’s Just a Feeling
After all, wanting to smoke weed is just a feeling. It’s a want. I want a fancy car sometimes. I want a hot girlfriend sometimes. I want a lot of money sometimes. Other times, I don’t care much about that stuff. Just like all feelings, few if any ever have to become obsessions. If you are anything like me, you were obsessed with smoking weed so if you’re a little obsessed with missing the feeling then you’re really not any worse off than you were before. At least now you’re saving the money, feel less guilt, and are probably a lot more productive in various aspects of your life.
Thanks for taking the time to read through this post. Please leave me a comment if you feel moved to do so. I truly hope to engage and connect with others who are either trying to quit weed or who are affected by someone with a weed-usage problem. Peace and love onto you all!