I’ve been where you are so have 100% compassion for you and all the gunk you may be feeling and/or wading through. These are the times when we say “Really Universe? This is how I’m supposed to grow? This is what I’m supposed to navigate?”
Burning questions with no obvious answers sometimes do end up in our rear view mirror after we emerge from the tunnel. Sending good wishes.
See my LinkedIn note about a possible connection.