Being a Servant of God and Suffering…

The last time I wrote, July 14, I had suffering on my mind. Since I suffer everyday with pain I am always talking to God. Sometimes I have to pray just to walk to my shop 80 feet away, God give me the strength. Another month passes, it’s now August 14 and I just can’t shake this strong feeling of suffering. God directed me to 1 Peter, 4 1–2: Forasmuch then as Christ suffered for us in the flesh, arm yourselves likewise with the same mind; for he that suffered in the flesh hath ceased from sin; That he no longer should live the rest of his time in the flesh to the lusts of men, but to the will of God.

“OK God, I’m ready, use me as you will, send me near, send me far, use me to help others. I am all yours to do whatever is your will,” I said out loud. Each morning for 4 days I said this in prayer. On day 5, God sent me to Massachusetts to support my two cousins emotionally when my uncle took a turn for the worse and started his walk home to the Lord. There at the hospital, I spent seven days tending to my uncle as he went through the dying process and suffered he did despite lots and lots of morphine.

Being there, watching, praying, asking God for understanding about suffering, I came to the realization about a couple of things. First, it is a difficult and painful process coming into this world and it can be a difficult and painful process going out of this world. And second, you will one way or another have to suffer in this world at some point before you die.

As I have said before, suffering brings you closer to God. If you have suffered in this life, God already knows your heart and mind; but if you have not suffered much in this life you still have to reconcile your life with God before He takes you home.

That takes time and suffering…