what is that I’m so afraid of?

I’m so fucking young to feel that frustrated about every single aspect of my life

why is that I feel so unworthy?

I had a conversation with a friend the other day about how I project the most great things for my life and yet I trust myself so little

why is that?

and then I remembered another conversation I had, this time with my mom: she said I have a need to prove myself and that I don’t have to do that

I guess it makes sense: I feel like I need to prove every single person that ever doubted me and at the same time to prove everyone expecting those great things, that I am capable

I don’t really know what’s worse: having people relying on you or having people who expect nothing good from you

that’s fucked up. just as I am.