I want you guys to know, I want everyone to know that I am not lonely when I sit at home. I am not lonely when I sit outside Burger King playing on my phone for hours. I am not lonely when I lay in bed readying or watching hours of Netflix. I am not lonely when I am baking cakes. I am never lonely all on my own.

I want all of you to know that being around you makes me lonely. It makes me lonely when I can’t put my words into sentences, when I feel rushed inside a restaurant to order my food. I feel lonely when I am in a crowded room with no hand to hold. I feel alone when I am not recognized for my intelligence and wisdom but for my high pitched laugh and big blue eyes. They are not clear, they are a deep under lying blue of the ocean that have seen many sad things. They have cried for not only my own struggles but for all of those I love.

I want you guys to know that I am at peace until the quiet is interrupted and I am reminded I am not the same.