3 Songs for Your Next Crucible
“If, then, we are to be fully human and fully alive and aware, it seems that we must be willing to suffer for our pleasures. Without such willingness there can be no growth in the intensity of consciousness.” – Alan Watts
In common goal-achieving essays, suffering for our growth seems to be a ubiquitous belief. If you only walk through a crucible, you can be redeemed, find success and happiness.
These writers, including myself, don’t know what it truly means to suffer.
Those suffering across the hot coals don’t have time to write; they’re working towards something worthy, something meaningful. They’re single dads, cancer survivors, marathon finishers, recovering addicts, struggling artists, no-sleep researchers, moonlight-shift emergency room workers.
The kind of suffering I speak of is when one endures necessary pain to achieve a worthy goal. No matter if the intention is towards life, health, strength, family, art, mindfulness, or occupation, most noble pursuits require crossing a threshold of pain which weeds out most mid-attempt.
Excuses like youth, inexperience, social responsibilities, or “not enough time” become trite reasons why people not finishing these personal summits. We look to external motivators to get us over the excuse hump and through the filter. We create to-do lists, formulate schedules, hire motivational coaches, read books, all with the intention to learn how to endure the necessary hurt.
Me? I am no different. I am a 23-year old young man sitting in a Starbucks coffee shop, spending too much time deep in the useless web, instead of penning an essay. I am one of thousands who have shied away from treacherous routes up aspiration mountain.
Like many my age, I am apt to use external motivators.
I need a shove, from anything, to give me a boost. Most times, this push comes from art. Music, film, writing, or story-telling all hold me to a true north in the direction of my dreams (and through a mud pile of hard work).
Today’s motivation: Aidan Knight.
Listening to three of his songs, “The Arp”, “Dream Team”, and “What Light (Never Goes Dim)”, I found the representation of suffering in an audible form. On whatever day you are about to embark upon, take a few minutes to listen and follow along below.
The visualization of suffering, portrayed in Aidan Knight’s Music:
Like the process of suffering, the battles start slow.
Every string is plucked with intention, with enough time for each vibration to resonate with the listener.
As the conquest becomes more arduous, we find the pain lingering beyond each new struggle.
Individual lyrics, flicker across the song’s timeline, creating shimmering light even after the words have been sung.
As the threshold of pain most people never cross nears, the obstacles hit us head on with unknown purpose.
The deeper context of each song is not immediately known; the slow pace is met blind but with forward movement.
Cross the threshold, we have endured enough pain. We have attained a worthy goal. The suffering ends and the rush of jubilation begins.
The crawling speed turns into a sprint; vocals are raised, drums come alive, pain is alleviated and joy emerges.
The euphoria bomb is detonated. We have crossed the Rubicon. We finally understand each mysterious piece of suffering and its purpose.
The song ends with a crescendo of sounds that melodically fit like a puzzle.
What a life that I have lived,
And I’ll live it again